One-time-mistake
I can’t believe it happened to me again. Oh, God! I hate myself so much!
Take a moment to calm down and think about me, well, it is little sarcastic! Today, I supposed to attend an interview in the afternoon, things ended up so ugly that I screwed it by myself, no matter how well prepared I was, how deserved this job I was. My careless screwed it!
As early as two weeks ago, I captured a vacancy of logistics company by a Want Ad through the internet. I felt pretty lucky that I got a call from them for an interview. I did what I could do to get this job, I went to a library to look over the reference books. I memorized all related knowledge: what’s the volume for empty containers, how to lease a storage, how to book a container, how to place a order, etc. The more effort I did, the more confidential to get the job I would.
These is a gold saying couldn’t be more right: “never hope for more, or your fall even harder”. This afternoon, I calculated a right time to go out for the interview. I took almost one hour bus and arrived at the building, while I was about to take out of my phone to check out the address information from phone note which I always put my note that way. I realized my phone was lying under my pillow. I just want to kill myself for that moment. I felt I was fooled by God. I was totally qualified for that job. Nevertheless, I didn’t get it due to my carelessness.
When I came back home, I call that company, and explained the whole thing, they refused to hear my excuse anyway. I screwed myself! I cried, I regret, I hate….but I couldn’t feel any better until I make a deal to myself that I am allowed to make mistakes as long as they are not the same.